Thursday, November 17, 2011

Not My Plan

I have been thinking a lot about Porter lately.  It is his birthday tomorrow and I can't believe it has been a year since I had him. A whole year has gone by and I am still here. I am amazed at all the love and support I have received this past year.  I don't think I would have made it without the dear prayers and comfort that surrounded me. I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father. Thankful that He knows me! He knows me perfectly, and knows what I needed to become the person I am supposed to be. I found this poem after I had Porter and wrote it in my journal. 

Not My Plan

My eyes long to see you
Now you behold Him
My arms ache for you
Now you know perfect Love
My ears yearn for your voice
Now you sing His praises
I desire to fed you
Now you will never hunger
I anticipated the pitter-patter of your feet
Now you play at His pierced ones
I dreamed of years of love and laughter 
Now you will never know pain
I long to watch you grow and develop 
Now you are perfect
This isn't how I planned it, but I know He loves you and me.

I know we will be together again little one. I love you so very much.



  1. Happy Birthday Porter! We Love You. Grandpa Juchau

  2. you are amazing Katie. I look up to you so much

  3. That's a really sweet poem. And such an appropriate title. I know the Lord has a plan for each of us. Accepting that brings peace, but it doesn't take away the pain and longing to be with your son. If it's anything the same for you as it is me, you must be thinking, "I can't believe a year has already come and gone so quickly" and at the same time think "it's only been a year?! how much longer must I wait to meet you." ...that's at least how I feel right now at 3 months.

  4. Happy Birthday Porter!! I can't believe it has been a year!! We miss you guys so much! Can't wait to see you soon!!