I have been thinking a lot about Porter lately. It is his birthday tomorrow and I can't believe it has been a year since I had him. A whole year has gone by and I am still here. I am amazed at all the love and support I have received this past year. I don't think I would have made it without the dear prayers and comfort that surrounded me. I am so thankful for my Heavenly Father. Thankful that He knows me! He knows me perfectly, and knows what I needed to become the person I am supposed to be. I found this poem after I had Porter and wrote it in my journal.
Not My Plan
My eyes long to see you
Now you behold Him
My arms ache for you
Now you know perfect Love
My ears yearn for your voice
Now you sing His praises
I desire to fed you
Now you will never hunger
I anticipated the pitter-patter of your feet
Now you play at His pierced ones
I dreamed of years of love and laughter
Now you will never know pain
I long to watch you grow and develop
Now you are perfect
This isn't how I planned it, but I know He loves you and me.
I know we will be together again little one. I love you so very much.