Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Carry me

Love the words to this song. It captures how I feel and how My Savior is always there, carrying me through.

Thursday, December 15, 2011


I really miss being pregnant. I loved it! But pregnancy didn't love me. I got awful migraines. Threw up till the day I had Porter. Got pimples the size of mount Helen and a fire breathing dragon made home in my throat. But, I loved having life inside of me.  Loved feeling Porter move and kick. Loved that I was going to be a mother.  I miss it. I long for it. I would take all the side effects and more in a heart beat to be pregnant again.  So those of you who are pregnant and complain. Please count your blessings. Understand how lucky you are to have babies.  Enjoy the journey of pregnancy. You get to be a MOTHER! How wonderful and amazing is that.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Life Jacket

Sometimes,.... well all the time lately, I feel like I am drowning. I feel like I just make it to the surface and another wave comes and sucks me under. Then I pray for help, plead to make it all stop. I get thrown a life jacket, but I am still suck in the middle of the ocean. I still have the waves crashing down on me, but I stay afloat because of my Savior. He is my life jacket. He knows that I have to stay in the storm and weather it. He knows that I would drown without him, but he can't send a boat to help me yet. That would be to easy. I have to swim the miles to shore myself.  I have to strengthen my muscles and build my endurance. But sometimes I think I will never leave this sad, lonely ocean. But He is there. Lifting me up when I am weak. Carrying me when I can't go any further. He is there, my Savior is always there. I will make it through. I will....Oh please help me make it through Lord.