Wednesday, January 4, 2012

The gift of giving

Christmas...What a Christmas I had. To sum it up in a word..... Surprising. I had some very tender moments this Christmas season. 

A few weeks before Christmas I received an anonymous package in the mail. I opened the unmarked package to find a small box.  That box held had a beautiful necklace with Porters name stamped in it. As well as a beautiful quote on the back, "A moment in our arms, Forever in our hearts." I could not believe someone would do this for me. I know I think about Porter daily, but for someone to go out of their way to do this for me? I was shocked, surprised, grateful, and amazed. Who did this? I was shocked. It made me want to be more giving. So whoever you are. Thank you. Thank you for inspiring me. You are an angel. 

The next surprise I got was a book in the mail. It was from my cousin. It was a book about dealing with miscarriages and infertility through the LDS perspective. It was wonderful to read. Thank you April for thinking of me and realizing that although it has been over a year since I lost Porter, I still miss him and still ache for him, and desperately want a child.

My next surprise was another necklace. I received this from Nate's cousin, Aimee.  When I opened the package I just started to cry. It was beautiful. It had Porters name on it with a little heart.  How are people so thoughtful and kind and tender? I was astounded. What amazing friends and family I have in my life. I am so blessed. So now I have 3 necklaces that I can wear to keep Porter close to me and remind me of others love for me.

I am so thankful for the people in my life. I don't deserve all the love that surrounds me. I just hope that one day I can be as kind and generous as others are to me.


  1. What thoughtful gifts!

    Is it the book "Gone Too Soon"? I just received that as a gift and started reading it over the holiday break.

  2. Oh. You make me cry. I adore you and I'm so thankful for women like you who brave such difficult things in life. You inspire me and make me want to be better. Thank you for sharing your journey. What beautiful gifts for a girl who is a beautiful gift to so many.