Paranoid

I knew I was going to be paranoid this pregnancy. I mean, honestly who wouldn't be. Lets just say thank my lucky stars that I work in a doctors office and right next to my OB. 

My doctor has been so patient with me. He is so sweet and sensitive. I recommend Dr. Skinner to anyone. When I was 6 weeks, I started having cramping. I knew logically that it was normal. Everyone cramps. It is your uterus expanding and getting thicker for the baby. However, I couldn't shake the fact that something was wrong. I was also very tender on my Left side. I knew that this baby was Ectopic. It had to be. I called my dad, Dr. Juchau and of course he said it was normal, but did I believe him, Nope, not one bit. All reason few out the window. I called my OB and he said to come down for a ultrasound. 

He found baby to be in my left uterus, completely healthy and doing great. Can you say drama queen! Everything was fine. 

Here is babies first photo 

 Yeah, pretty much a blob! But hey it's my baby blob and I am so happy that baby is in fact in my uterus. It is interesting because when I was pregnant with Porter, he was in my Right uterus.  My doctor said that I was probably just not use to my Left side contracting since it never had before. It was nice to get reassured that I wasn't completely crazy. 

I had my next appointment at 8 weeks. We did the standard blood work, vitals, answered questions.....I had ALOT! and we did another ultrasound! BONUS! We got to see our little blob again.  This time we saw little fins. Adorable! I guess the up side of being high risk is that I get to have a ultrasound at every appointment. It's nice to be able to see my baby that much and know that he/she is doing okay.

At my appointment my OB said he wants me to meet with the Perinatologist (Specialized OB doctor) at 20 weeks to get evaluated. He wants to make sure we cover all our bases and get a game plan for my third trimester. When we had Porter we found out that my placenta grew into my uterus. It was a very very rare abnormality and probably had nothing to do with why we lost Porter. I had to have two surgeries to remove it, so we just want to make sure it doesn't happen again and if it does we are prepared for it. I am something of a medical mystery.  My doctor said that I should donate my body to a Medical school and freak out all the Med students! HAHA! I love it. If some of you don't know, I have two uterous, uteri? and four kidneys and a few other interesting abnormalities. Kinda crazy, but kinda cool.

This Saturday I worked at the Clinic and it was soooo Slow. So I asked my dad if we could try to hear the babies heart beat. I was 9.5 weeks. He said not to get upset if we couldn't but he would try.  Well after about 5 or 6 minutes he found it! Babies heart was just pumping away at 165 beats a minute. Hurray! Man have I said how awesome it is to work at a doctors office! Such a huge blessing! I am so thankful for my job, my dad, my doctor and my husband for keeping me sane. Because who knows what a basket case I would be with out them. 

Here I am at 9 weeks. Nothing to show yet, but I am sure in the next few weeks there will be. I show early and I show big. 

Being Pregnant

I forgot what it was like to be pregnant. Of course I was remembering the all the beautiful things about it. Constantly daydreaming of feeling my baby move inside of me and having that "Glow."  Its amazing how all the "not so happy things" I went through, happened to slip my mind. :) Oh how they all have come flooding back.  The nausea, throwing up, acne, tiredness, dizziness, headaches and so on. But you know what.......I welcome it. Bring it on! Because as long as I am sick, I know that there is a baby inside of me. A beautiful, perfect, miracle baby that was sent to me! So I am not going to complain, however, it is definitely not a walk in the park. Pregnancy hates me. I was not built to have babies and once I am pregnant my body lets me know it.  However, what a blessing it is to even get pregnant. To have the opportunity to house one of Heavenly Fathers special spirits. To be a Mother. I can not wait! I just hope I can take this little one home with me this time. Fingers crossed. Heart full of hope. Prayers welcomed :). 

Guess What....

We are Pregnant!

5 Years!!!

Holy Macaroni and cheese Batman! Nate and I have been Married for 5 years on June 29th! I am writing this a little early because this is when I have time. It boggles my mind that it has been 5 years, but then when I look back at our marriage, we sure have been through ALOT!

Here is a quick summary of the past 5 years:

Year 1:

We got sealed in Salt Lake Temple for time and all eternity by Nate's grandpa (the best experience ever!)

Moved to St. George for Nate's work as a draftsman (a little less awesome and more anxiety provoking). 

Fell even more in love!

Worked, saved money, Worked, saved money.

Moved back to Springville (thank goodness). 

Started School and new jobs. 

Spent days working, doing homework, sleeping, eating, working, homeworking, sleeping, eating,..trying to go on dates, but mostly homework.

Year 2:

Repeat last line of year 1.

Nate lost his job for 7 months

Year 3:

I graduate from BYU! hip hip hurray! 

Went on Italy trip to celebrate graduating! Score!

Conceived a baby boy in Italy! Double Score!

Threw up for the next 30 weeks, booooo

Worked, worked, worked for me,

Studied, worked, studied for Nate

Had our beautiful angel baby.

Connected deeper to each other then we ever thought possible!

Understood how the Atonement of Jesus Christ applies to me.

Had about a 1,000 medical tests.

Found out there was nothing wrong with me or Porter.

Year 4: 

Started running and really taking care of myself

Started a Blog

Continued to work

Ran my first 5K! 

Went backpacking through Wyoming.

Nate lost his job again :(

Received the Okay to start trying to get pregnant again :)

Had my period every single picking month for the next year

Drew even closer to my husband and the Lord. 

Watched my parent separate, then get divorced

Lost myself for a moment.

Found myself again, thanks to my hubby!

Year 5:

Continued to struggle to get pregnant

Decided we weren't going to stress about it.

Fell even deeper in love

Went California twice for weddings

Nate lost his job again :(

Nate started his own business.

I started a new job...make that two.

We play outside any spare second we get. 

As of today we are just taking life as it comes. A day at a time. If I have learned anything the past 5 years, it has been that you can't control what is going to happen. You just have to do you best with what you have and pray that you can make it through. 

I am so thankful for my Nate. He is my rock, my friend, my lover, my eternal companion. I wouldn't have been able to stay sane through any of this without him. Nate has a patience and tenderness about him, that not many people do. He is the most gentle and loving man I have ever met. He truly loves the Lord and always has charity in his heart. He makes me want to be better, do better, care deeper and stand straighter. I love this guy with everything that I have. Nathan Richard Adams, I LOVE YOU! Thanks for the most wonderful 5 years of my life!

 Thanks for taking the plunge with me!

Need a Lift

I am bummed, and it's not the woe is me, I hate my life, bummed. More of the "where has all my motivation gone" bummed. I feel like I used to have so much vigor and vim. Not quite sure what has happened?  Seems like when I get home from work, I just want to cuddle with the hubs and watch a redbox or netflix. We did actually walk to Walmart yesterday to get our redbox... However it is only a mile to the store. I don't know.... I tell myself everyday, 'When you get home Katie, you will go running, clean the house, make dinner, practice making a baby (wink wink). Maybe not in that order, but only some, if any of those things get done.  I wish there was an energy pill I could take. I am with kids all day, and I honestly don't think it is fair that they get all the energy, with nothing to do with it. I feel like stress is an energy zapper. The more stressed you are, the less energy you have. Which really doesn't make since, because when you are dealing with stressful situations the added energy would be helpful. The funny thing is, there is nothing super stressful in my life right now. Sure..Nate lost his job, but he has his business and that is doing,...okay. Plus I got a second job, so we are making it... kinda LOL. And yes, we are trying to get pregnant, but honestly, the stress of that has gone way down. We are just having a good ole time being together without have a calendar tell us when to get busy. In summary, my life is pretty peachy, considering what I have been through the past couple of years. So, why the heck do I feel down so much??? Beats me, but I am sure getting annoyed with the whole, no energy gig. Any suggests on what kick starts your mood would be helpful. Thanks!

Pictures

Here are a few more pictures that were not on Jackie Norris's Blog

Overwhelmed

Overwhelmed:

1. Bury or drown beneath a huge mass.
2. Defeat completely.
3. To overcome or crush.

 Yep, that sums up my day......

Hoping for a better one tomorrow.