I am bummed, and it's not the woe is me, I hate my life, bummed. More of the "where has all my motivation gone" bummed. I feel like I used to have so much vigor and vim. Not quite sure what has happened? Seems like when I get home from work, I just want to cuddle with the hubs and watch a redbox or netflix. We did actually walk to Walmart yesterday to get our redbox... However it is only a mile to the store. I don't know.... I tell myself everyday, 'When you get home Katie, you will go running, clean the house, make dinner, practice making a baby (wink wink). Maybe not in that order, but only some, if any of those things get done. I wish there was an energy pill I could take. I am with kids all day, and I honestly don't think it is fair that they get all the energy, with nothing to do with it. I feel like stress is an energy zapper. The more stressed you are, the less energy you have. Which really doesn't make since, because when you are dealing with stressful situations the added energy would be helpful. The funny thing is, there is nothing super stressful in my life right now. Sure..Nate lost his job, but he has his business and that is doing,...okay. Plus I got a second job, so we are making it... kinda LOL. And yes, we are trying to get pregnant, but honestly, the stress of that has gone way down. We are just having a good ole time being together without have a calendar tell us when to get busy. In summary, my life is pretty peachy, considering what I have been through the past couple of years. So, why the heck do I feel down so much??? Beats me, but I am sure getting annoyed with the whole, no energy gig. Any suggests on what kick starts your mood would be helpful. Thanks!
I've noticed that the older I get the less energy I have...we are just getting old Katie! =)Really though, don't be too hard on yourself. Do what you can and be proud of the little things you accomplish everyday like going to work (and holding 2 jobs!). That in and of itself is a major accomplishment and energy drainer. Be proud of the little things and don't compare yourself to the person you wish you could be or the person you used to be (like in high school when we all had so much more energy!); try to be happy with the person you are now and be proud of all that you are doing...and don't feel guilty if when you get home from work that all you want to do is cuddle and watch a movie. That's what you should do after a long day of work. And remember- "time you spent wasting was not wasted time at all". I found that quote on a dove chochlate square. =) Love you! Sending high energy vibes and baby making vibes your way. =)
ReplyDeleteTimes when you're feeling down are hard. I hate it because I feel like I can't pinpoint the reason and that drives me batty! Is it because I haven't been praying/reading my scriptures? Is there something off with my physical body? Am I just emotional, hormonal, or mentally out of wack? Or is it the hard things in life I'm dealing with? All of the above? Or none of the above?!
ReplyDeleteI wish I could remember what gets me out of the phases and back to "normal" (if there is such a thing). I don't really know that I can pinpoint what gets me out of it. However, one thing that I try to do is to keep a little journal of each good thing that I've done in a day --even if it is as simple as remembered to take my thyroid medicine, smiled at the lady in the checkout line, spent time on the phone with my mom, told Trevor "I love you," or paused to enjoy the sunset. Sometimes the list is longer than I thought it might be and sometimes it's really short either way it is helpful to acknowledge all the good I've done in a day. I especially feel better when my list includes things I've done for other people. I'm sure with both of your jobs you would have a lengthy list of how you've helped others in both large and small ways.
Love and pray for you!
Katie, I've noticed that after I've gone through a really stressful or difficult stage in life, that when things start to change or maybe slow down, I do too. I know it sounds weird, but I think it is our minds or bodies saying that we need to slow down. It's been through a lot and needs time to rejuvinate. Maybe it's just what you need for baby making. :)I get that way too though, and it can be frustrating feeling like you aren't getting as much accomplished, but I think it's like Kaitlyn said, we have to celebrate the things we do get done. The most important things you are doing, like enjoying your hubby. Give it time and your body and mind will be ready to get going full speed again. Love you!
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