Of course I am a few months late in writing this post, Life seems to be getting busier, busier everyday. Our little angle baby, Porter Owen Adams, turned 3 years old on November 18,2013. We have a tradition that every year on Porter's birthday we write letters to him and do a ballon launch. I like to think that he gets our letters, or at least can feel that we are thinking about him. This year was particularly special because Autumn was able to send our letters to her heavenly brother!
Letter from Mom
Dear Porter,
Happy Birthday darling! I can't believe you are three years old! It would be so fun to see you running around chasing Ollie and rolling on the ground with Autumn. I am sure you are watching over her all the time without us realizing it. I love you so much Porter. I can't wait to be with you again and have you and Autumn play together. The pain of when you died was so intense, I thought it would never stop hurting....but the Atonment of Jesus Christ has helped heal the hole in my heart that you were supposed to fill. Also as time passes I find that I gain more perspective and understanding on what your purpose was. It was to teach us that we can be together forever and that we can overcome anything with the Lords help. Thank you for being such an example to me. I am sure you are up in heaven teaching the gospel and being an amazing missionary. I love and miss you so much. Continue to watch over us. I can feel you often. Happy Birthday my sweet angel!
Love always, MOM
Letter from Dad
Porter,
Happy Birthday! I am so glad to have a day to celebrate you. We miss you. We hope that you are doing great things. We love you so much and cannont wait to meet and talk to you. Your little sister Autumn is doing so well. She has had some struggles as I am sure you know. She has done so well to get through it all, and continue to gow and learn. We are glad to know that she has an older brother waching out for her. This year has been very busy. We have been thinking about you and what you would be doing if you were here with us. We know you would be playing and laughing with your sister all the time. You have changed our lives by visiting us. When the day comes we are excited to see what you have been accomplishing up in heaven.
Love, DAD
Dear Autumn,
I have decided that I am going to write you a letter every year for your birthday. Then you will have letters from me throughout the years to hopefully love and cherish as I have loved and cherished you!
My darling little miss tiny, this year has been one of the hardest and happiest years of my life. I never thought I could love someone so much. The 6 weeks you were in the NICU, were one of the roughest parts of my life. Then when you had your reconstructive surgery on your skull 5 months later, I could bearly keep myself together. I thought at any moment my heart would break in two. The only thing that kept me whole was your strength. You were resilent through all of it. You are truely a fighter my dear. You showed me the power of prayer and faith. As well as the support and love all around us.
Autumn, I am so thankful that Heavenly Father sent you to me. You are so special. You have such a sweet spirit about you. Everyone you meet can feel it. You are magnetic. When I tell people about your story, they immediately tell me how they could sense something special about you.
Autumn, you make me laugh everyday with your fake coughs, snorts, grunts and giggles. I feel that my heart will explode with all the love I have for you. You are so curious. You are constantly looking around and examining your surroundings. You have to be the center of attention. You are such a social baby. Always teasing others with your adorable shy smile and jibber-jabbers. You light up my life. I love what a snuggle bug you are. You love to cuddle up with dad and I, or even our dog Ollie. You are so tender and gentle. You softly touch my face as I rock you to sleep each night, and it always brings tears to my eyes. Your voice is so soft and sweet, and when you sing everyone stops to listen.
I want you to know that Mom and Dad love you so incredibly much! I can not adequately express how much you mean to me. I hope you can feel it, because I can feel your love.
Its hard to believe a year has already flown by. I can't wait to see what joys this next year brings. Happy Happy Birthday Autumn!
